Haha nothin'gs changed in this one, I'm still wanting a prince in a white 200sx to sweep me off my feet. Sad fact is, I might actually be able to get one myself before such princes' have a chance hehe...
More on love 26-06-06
You know you’re getting to that point of life, where you are bordering adulthood. Because that is when you write 5 blogs about love in 2 weeks?Am I there yet?
I have been on both side of the scale when it comes to love, and I guess I’ve been thinking about it a lot. Of course the best thing in life is to love and be loved in return, but failing that.
I believe everyone in this world needs to experience loving but not been loved in return just once. It’s a steep learning curve, and it really teaches you a lot about your self. So I guess the following is what I have learnt through my 8 years of loving someone, who did not feel the same way...
I use to believe in the typical fairy tale love, that one day my prince will drive by in his white 200sx and give me his keys. He will promise me a castle, conquer the world and place it in a silver platter for me to pick at?RL isn’t half as romantic. I learnt that to love and not be loved in return is the most heart drenching experience of my then young life. I couldn’t understand why he could not be with me. I started questioning myself, doubting myself... so in typical Aries fashion... I tried harder, and harder and even harder.
In the 8 years, I bloomed into every guy’s wet dream. Smart, sexy, considerate, understanding, beautiful, and at the same time into everything they are into... Cars, games, sports. I didn’t just become who I was to impress the man of my dreams, I embraced it, and it became part of who I was. Yet still he resisted, time and time again he broke my heart?
I learnt that sometimes it’s really just not you, simple and clear. No deception or hiding meanings, sometimes it just it. I learnt that for others to love you, you have to first love yourself, embrace yourself, and know yourself. I learnt that you have to prepare yourself, to ready yourself for the man whom you’ll eventually settle with. To increase yourself worth in every aspect of the word to give you that advantage once the right man comes along.
I learnt that to love was not about been loved in return. It was about been quietly in the back ground, ensuring that his life was the best you could possibly make it. It was about been there for him when he’s down, cheering him up when he’s sad, and listening to him when he has something to say. Love is like the oxygen he breathes, the soft warm breeze in a winter’s night, soft moonlight in the darkest night, and the first ray of the sun in the morning. Love is like a small flowing spring, never majestic, never over flowing, and never going anywhere. You would miss it if it was no longer there, but been loved is knowing that the spring is ever flowing, and your paradise should you wish to seek it.
