If you're a friend and have been following my msn blog you would have read some of these, but I realised that it's been 2 years since I have started my blog. Have I learnt anything? haha probably not, But i'm a little older, wise, and certainly more cynicle. Here's what I was thinking 2 years ago. Enjoy!
Growing up 22-06-06
I guess this topic have been playing at the back of my mind for a while now. It has become especially prominent in the past 2 weeks or so, like a never ending symphony, finally nearing the crescendo. So too must I face my music, shrouded by the soft swirls of fantasy, and the piercing light of reality, to take my first step in the dungeons of adulthood.
The chains of responsibility hang on every wall, and the soft soothing songs of stability seducing my every step. Would I ever find my throne in this foreign land scape, the throne of accomplishment which has dominated so many of my past dreams? Would I sit in my place, with my children by my feet and announce to the world that not only have I succeeded, but I have conquered. Or would I become like so many other, doomed to wonder and search and yearn for something that’s just not meant to be?
I have always been the one to enjoy the journey rather then the end. But when you stand to lose so much, how could you walk that road with a light heart? How could you slay the monster of doubt, when it’s hard to distinguish friend from foe, and losing the battle means giving up the war?
I just wish I had some guidance before me, even just a soft flickering of light to reflect the one in my eyes. Some comfort in knowing that it’s okay to make mistakes in this, that to take a stumble means you could still get up.
As I look around me, skeletons of spirits past grin up at me from their eternal rest. What were they thinking, when they finally sat down to rest? Were they scared when they first set foot into this bleak dungeon? Did they have hopes and dreams? Did they too, harbour the same ever burning passion within their hearts? Did they find the happiness that they seeked?
And I guess most importantly ... Did they find themselves along the way?
