Blinded

It has been weeks since the first Tibet unrest that started it all, and it has taken its toll on me, both mentally and spiritually.  I went through interesting stages and have found out things about myself that I did not know about.  However others I have to say, have only reaffirmed my ‘bias’ towards certain topics.

It is also with certainty, since my apology that I can say.  I was right about some things.

Many Chinese people are so blinded by their patriotism, that it would be scary to see them with out it.  Every time they feel that they are wronged, they lash out with out regards to the actual fact or feel remorse for any people they hurt.  They act with out compassion, logic, restraint or even show any small amount of virtue.  These are the people that makes me shudder every time I hear their proclamation of their origin, Chinese.

They say it with such pride and love that it’s hard to believe they do not do things within the best interest of China.  Yet every other word that comes from them reeks of hate, discrimination, and injustice conveniently masked by the strong sense of patriotism.  It always makes me wonder… Do they not see it?  It always makes me question their true intentions, and further more their actual love for their country.

Maybe it is patriotism that has whipped many towards the fine line between sanity and rabid.  Taking away the mask of patriotism, where country and pride is not at stake, these are rational, intelligent people.  Than why does this added garnish change a person so much?  Is patriotism really helping or hurting the cause?

Anyways, answers are always hard to find… Maybe I still do not understand the culture as well as I should.  The search continues…