dying...
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iam so tired ..i have a lot to worry about in this moment..so stress about the university if i can get it after high school, the rejection of the teacher who i like, the dislike by classmates, group people in school and the breaking up with ex boy-frined. i cant stand those anymore. becoz of my family problems, i dont get with my mum and dad. i dont even wanna talk to them , they dont understand but blaming. untiled i found someone i thought that he will really love me for true and i put my soul into him, even i dont get with my classmates and group people in school,but i still glad that i have him support me outside of the school, and i thought i have only him in the wrold is enough for my whole life. i feel im dropping down from the heaven to the hell, without the love you only loved in the world, there is not purpose for living in the world. and now he said im not the one for you. what should i do ? i take it and have no choice. now , i wont talk to my parents , because they are seperated, and my dad i will never ever forgive because of his abuse before and it will ever in my mind. my mum a busy woman always come back from whatever work she is doing and i dont even know what she's doing anyways , come back from work when i was in sleeping and still in sleep when i was get up to go to school. no talk between us. in school, beacause i was new to the school, many people they already have their group and being really frinds to each other already, and me just whatever, they even cares if i was in school today or sick or missing stuffs. they dont even know i was alived i should say . then thats alright that was i expected they are, because i thought i have support from bf outside school ,that means i dont need them, cause i got you. but unfortunily, he choose to left me behind on such romatinc day in the year of 2008. and i have no chance to say no. now i become nothing, i dont even who am i , and where i belongs to . day go to school with no one talking to me , no one care. night, not mobile has be ringing. i havent see any number on my phone in this 2 months . lonely...so stressful and painful from the heart breaking..now he may supporting another girl or i dont know . but sure we are not friend, i cant seeing you with another girl holding hands or even kiss each other. but also i know cry is nothing , tears worths nothing ,it wont get you back for me. why you choose not to love me anymore，becuase of the way i acted, because im not pretty enough, because im short or because you think i not match you or because your fds dont like me much...i said i will changed you still not give me another chance. there will be no one love me as realistic as you did anymore, in this world i dont trust them, they always fooling me around, and lying to me .. and even i know them for ages, they dont even take some of their time to meet this no see an year fd..or they cares...
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引用 删除 Honey豬豬 / 2008-04-22 19:58:59
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原帖由fonz于2008-04-21 22:04:51发表
I'm sorry to hear that...sounds like you've cut down on communication with your parents. it's har
原帖由fonz于2008-04-21 22:04:51发表
I'm sorry to hear that...sounds like you've cut down on communication with your parents. it's har
well, ya, pretty much ..but it wasnt my first time ,but was my second time really loved a person, and well time do heal everythings up and iam getting there..thank you ..and lucky ya,iam still young ,hah 。。
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引用 删除 fonz / 2008-04-21 22:04:51
- I'm sorry to hear that...sounds like you've cut down on communication with your parents. it's hard been in that situation and i'm sure you'll learn from the breakup coz it sounds like your first time. Try and always get to know him more before you put all of your heart and soul into it. Look you are still young and i believe time would heal everything. I hope all would be well for you in the future.
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原帖由DKNY于2008-04-01 23:58:16发表
You have the potential to be under the Spotlight. I personally think only a beautiful girl is a g
thank you for your advices..well,its just hard..life is hard..i will stand out of this problems as i know if i choose to be negative to face stuffs, stuffs will just be worst..
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引用 删除 DKNY / 2008-04-01 23:58:16
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You have the potential to be under the Spotlight. I personally think only a beautiful girl is a girl of whom possesses both inner and outter beauty. They are like diamonds in the mud, Venus in the morning sky, they just standout no matter where they are. A beautiful girl would seek to perfect and improve themselves in aspects of what they and the world believe is attractive.
It is tough to make friends in a new environment, but you need to have the confidence in believing that you can make good and reliable friends. Be friends with those who you feel comfortable with, and it is definitely a social skill that you need for University, workforce, ...etc. If you cant find a suitable friend, not a big deal, it's their loss for not appreciating you.
Start learning to think independently, take hold of your future, dont let anyone take that from you. Because, in the end, it will not make their lives any different and you might have lost everything.
The reason for existence of humankind is because their is a balance. Every negative aspect has something positive behind it. You just have to find out what that positive thing is. When you find it, you will find yourself standing at a higher level from rest of your peer group.
